I just totally want to apologize. ive been going through some family issues recently and it has made me a little sluggish. I look back at my work for captain to use as reputation images and i never quite feel happy with them, as if i could do better. I find myself staying up late nights trying to build up the desire to create things but the will is quickly lost after i sit and reflect on the fact that the outcome is most likely not going to be very pleasant, today i had posted a total of 4 images but only 1 of them i feel is of any quality after working several hours into the night and drinking multiple cups of coffee i'm left at 6AM with a few pictures that i feel took so long for such shitty results and the urge to cry in the corner probably to lack of sleep. i feel especially bad due to the fact that i told @PirateCaptain that i was going to get so much done this weekend. theres always tomorrow and i don't want to let anyone down so i will keep pushing forward but it does get a little lonely sometimes because everyone else is in a completely different time zone so when they are all asleep i am awake.
Doing this work to better this website brings so much pride and excitement into my heart and i thank captain very much for opening this door for me.